Worry kicked my ass in 2012.
In a very good way, that is.
Out of the mentor for the idea), leaning in to worry really transformed my life and work like no other year.I used to guide me in 2012 (thanks to an amazing
Why would worry help guide me, you ask?
Worry is a reaction to fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of change. Fear of rejection. And so on.
Will I make enough money to make my bill payments this month?
Will I do a good job when I coach that new client?
Will I have enough disposable income to help my son in his first year of college?
Will I stay healthy enough to run this solopreneurship?
What if nobody signs up for my webinar?
What if nobody buys my new product offering?
What if my blog post sucks?
Who would even buy my book if I published it?
These are all bull shit questions that have often crossed my mind. They were good for nothing but keeping me in a state of fear.
The Elephant in the Room
With worry deeply rooted in my blood line, I had two decisions to make in dealing with the elephant in the room once and for all.
I could ignore the elephant and become paralyzed every time he pushed his weight around and shit all over the floor.
Or, I could tame the elephant and have him put on a good show.
Last year, one of the worst possible things that could ever happen to a human being happened. It’s very personal so I won’t divulge it here.
Can you guess what happened after everything went down?
Nothing, really. Other than some pivoting on my end, the world went on. Life and business as usual.
The worst had already happened and so there was nothing really left to worry about to follow that.
But even as bad things will happen to you, there is still no excuse to do bad things to others.
Sweet Revenge is Moving On and Forward
Moving forward with compassion and unrelenting love.
For those I love dearly.
For the purpose I am here on this earth.
It didn’t come easy at first. This embracing worry thing. It’s never comfortable when you’re entering unchartered territory.
And I learned that… that’s kind of the point. To not be comfortable.
When you’re complacent, you do the same thing over and over and never feel fulfilled. It’s predictable. There’s no challenge. No excitement.
When you’re leaning into your worry, your fears, you do some of your best work ever because you don’t have a security blanket to catch you if you fall. So you try your damnedest to succeed.
Worry and I are actually good pals now. Since that breakthrough, I have never felt more confident or fulfilled in my life. In fact, I even got asked to write about fear in a project that was recently launched.
And it was never about swallowing worry as a whole, but cutting it up into manageable chunks you can chew.
My 2012 theme may be behind me now, but it has become ingrained in me after dwelling on it for 12 long months. In my muscle memory where it will stay.
My Theme for 2013
As for my theme for 2013, I just developed my three words during my annual tarot reading with my spiritual adviser. She has helped me gain clarity in life, work, and love for five years now so I wouldn’t do this part of the process without her.
This year I will focus on giving hope to other solopreneurs like me who seek my support to help them get through the emotionally and mentally trying times that can often hold them back. It will be my job to show up every day living and breathing the example I espouse and teach others.
Serving others will always be at the core of everything I do. Like worry did for me last year, service will be my grounding word in 2013 to ensure I am living and working with integrity.
Celebration, like the energy of being in a temple, will help me to show gratitude for the many successes I will manifest in 2013. It’s easy to get caught up in moving to the next milestone before completely rejoicing in our blessings. I will stop and smell the roses more often.
Success is a journey, not a destination. – Arthur Robert Ashe, Jr.
What’s in store for you in 2013?